Redefining indulgence

I got many things cluttered in my head at the moment, or at least in the last few weeks. Questions, many kind of questions, questioning everything about myself. Am I really a trustworthy person? Am I really a reliable person? Am I really a team player? Am I a smart person? How smart am I? How strong am I? What am I going to do next with my life? Am I staying in the job, or moving to another job in the same field, or moving out to a completely new field? Am I capable of what I'm doing now?

Seems like I've reached another comfort zone of my life. Stagnant. Pretty comfort I must say... But unfortunately it doesn't suit my surrounding expectations. The others need refreshments: refreshing ideas - out of the box way of thinking - innovative approach - bla bla bla... Challenging (in a positive way) but also tiring (in negative way, the one I used to take).

I need to focus on another part of my life, that used to be rarely emotionally touched by me. I don't think I'm a multitasking person anymore, I'm just a twenty something woman, who tried hardly to divide my pie of time in a day into a wonderful balance.

I need to look for further, what is my next destination... First step, contemplating to redefine my indulgence...