family oriented vs. business oriented

it's sunday, holiday, but not really a holiday for me and kemplung. he had to prepare things for the upcoming project, my event on tuesday. i had to prepar my own things too, all the boring paperworks for tuesday. then followed by all the proposals and pr plan for the 2 events within the next 2 weeks. yes, i got back to back events for three weeks in a row, nothing special about that.

kemplung understands how i depend my life on my laptop and internet, so he plugged in a 24-hr internet line in his place, makes my life so much easier during my day offs. like today, he was down there, busy being an amateur carpenter and me, up here, cleaning up the room and stay in front of my laptop. i wanted to work, but still lazy, so i just opened my frienster and check up my best pals.


after 1.5 hours, i found 2 interesting blogs, belongs to 2 of my bestfriends in college. nita's blog with all her stories about her beloved daughter daiba (yep, just like other young moms do, trust me - i've been observing this for my clients) and iie's blog about her life. reminds me of my own blog, which i haven't touched for sometimes.

those three blogs are just not blogs, it's more than that. it's sort of our identity, at least for three of us. we love writing, we always do. we wanna be writers, with different level of willingness. we love to share, biggest in common among us that tied us together. and most important for this moment, it's a communication channel that allow us to understand each other.

it's been such a while we haven't seen each other, or talking each other. don't ask why coz i don't know. so many things come between us: work, husbands (except for me who still haven't find my hubby), kids (again, except for me), distance (literally, since each of us live on different suburb area of jakarta), etc.

among five or six, only two who haven't got married, me and dini. worst part, i'm one of those kind of persons who always wants to get married soon. i wrote 'being a great housewife' di kolom cita-cita waktu ngisi buku kenangan waktu zaman sd. yep, that's how bad i want it. until many things happen to me during my college years and afterward, forces me to shift my direction. i'm then being a workaholic - something i never imagine before. after that, the rest is easy to guess, my job has overruled my life, for years...

while my best friends are busy with their new families, i'm still busy with my paperwork, my meeting with clients, my emails, my task list, etc. i always thought i'm a smart woman and being a good consultant will make me a great person too. till i realized that life is not only about my job. i started to realize that i got nothing left except for my job, my clients, my colleagues, my so called boyfriend. where are my bestfriends???

i kinda blame them actually, that they don't have time anymore for me. hauahhahahha... of course, they have more than 10 things to juggle with every single day, and me? after reading those blogs, i realized something.

they are not completely changed like i always thought, they are just trying to do their additional roles the best they can. it's only 24 hours in a day, and when you got additional roles (a.k.a with additional bonus of problems) without NO additional time, you just have to make some adjustments right? it's so common sense, but unfortunately i never realized.

i have to learn a lot from them, they don't let their work overruled their live. they can always spare time with their children, with their colleagues, with their families, even with themselves! i gotta stop crying and break down in front of my computers, desperate of not finishing all the jobs and satisfying my clients.

the man on my side, he needs my attentions, even to the smallest things i suppose. he needs black coffee in the morning, he needs small kisses during the days (he would remember when i don't kiss him at all one day), he needs a hug, he needs my help driving his car throughout jakarta, he needs help with his laundry and dirty plates. i gotta learn from iie and nita (and other married friends of mine) about time management and which way to choose: family oriented or business oriented...

bottomline: my best friends are never being my past, they are always being my best friends, as long as i treat them well...